Currently I'm still working as an intern at Mount Hermon Christian Conference Center. The work in the Book Shop is pretty good, but I'm running into the contentment barricade. And I have every reason to be content and grateful for a job and free housing and some free meals. But at the same time I long to be in a more relational job. Somehow I am always on a quest to find more meaning in my work.
Which is why I love working with the youth at my church. The relationships there are slow to grow, but I am enjoying just spending time with the students. It's stretching me too, because I have had the opportunity to do some Sunday School teaching--which means public speaking, which is always a challenge for me. But I have been encouraged in that this year because the students seem to enjoy my "lessons." Something I never seem to expect. I think God is urging me to embrace confidence in Him and in myself (Him working through me).
But back to what I mentioned at the beginning here, I feel as though I should be developing a more clear picture of what I'm meant to do--if there is such a thing. I'm having trouble even describing what my dream job would be. I'm not sure why, either. Is it fear that is stopping me even from dreaming? I do still have plenty of ideas for the future though. As always : )
And I do see vaguely how God might be aligning some of my interests. I just keep moving forward with expectancy. During my quiet times God seems to be (I don't want to put words in His mouth) calling me to be a woman of patience, waiting and rest. In one sense it's difficult to just rest in Him and to trust. But in another it brings me comfort, because in it I can sense that He is doing something that I can't yet fully see or understand. I know He's always working in and through my circumstances. I'm working at resisting the restlessness that springs up in me so often.
So, there's a thorough update on the fringes of my inner life.
Words of wisdom and encouragement are always welcome : )
Expectant in Him,
Emily
