More Mixed Emotions

Today was my last day as a Mount Hermon Employee! It was a very bittersweet goodbye in the Book Shop... I will miss the job and all the people I worked with. Funny how it sorta sneaks up on you how much you'll miss people. I guess that's why God tells us to be thankful in all situations--so it isn't when something is over that we come to realize the value therein.

The other day I had an interesting conversation with God. Or not so much of a conversation, but maybe another sort of realization. I was sitting on a bench on WestCliff reading Searching for God Knows What by Donald Miller (kind of irrelevant, though it is a good book... especially the chapter called Naked about the Garden of Eden). Anyway, I don't remember if something in the book triggered this or what, but all of a sudden I realized that the closer it gets to my leaving for Mexico and Austria the more I find that I value home--the community of people, the beach, the weather, my church... Leaving may seem to some an adventure to be envied, but for me it is becoming a sacrifice of sorts. Don't get me wrong. I want to go. And I am sure I will have a lot of fun too. But the act of leaving is an act of obedience more than desire right now. Which in a lot of ways affirms for me that this really just might be right where God wants me. After all, He never tells me life with Him will be easy. But it most certainly is an adventure.

Though I'm both sad and excited to leave I have even more anticipation over how God will use me this next year. Prayers that I continue to hear His voice and follow His leading would be great!

Thanks friends!